Feelings (Regenerated)

Your feelings are what need to be explained.
My feelings are what keeps me at bay.
Purposefully inflicting me with pain.
You got my mind wondering all day.
Paranoia got me caught up in a maze.
Traumatizing memories, I set them in a blaze.
Photos from the early days, past mistakes that I made.
Insomnia creeping over into each coming day.
Voices in my head saying I’m doing it the wrong way.
Plenty of fish in the sea that’s what they always say but I’m getting tired of always feeling incomplete. 

So pray for me because my feelings are harming me.
24/7 on the daily even when it’s thundering and lightning.
People keep criticizing me, always underestimate me.
It never comes lightly because your life is darkening.
Everything happens for a reason but I don’t wanna hear that awful speech again.

They say leave the past in the past and look forward to the future but knowing me I can never get past and that’s for fucking sure.
Last night she left stains on my collar.
She stained my brain with her closure.
The Heartbreaking pain remains, same with her fragrance on my sweatshirt.

The devil told me I can’t keep her. 
God also telling me I can’t keep her
She’s telling me “please don’t pop a perk”.
I keep telling me that I’m just another fucking jerk.
Friends tell me to keep going, there my influencers.
Every morning I crave those pills but I can’t fail her.

So pray for me because my feelings are harming me.
24/7 on the daily even when it’s thundering and lightning.
People criticizing me, always underestimate me.
It never comes lightly because your life is darkening.
Everything happens for a reason but I don’t wanna hear that awful speech again.

Kings and Queens always seem to live a better life than the ones who stumble just to get it right.
Royal blood doesn’t give you the right to teat other like you have a better life.
Fucker would take the knife and slice it through his wife leaving permanent scares that now impact her life.
Her sons now overdosing and crashing cars, something that will eventually end his life.

Dead to the world without a price.
If you want me dead just ask nicely.
Peacefully I go out in harmony.

(Medicine in You)

Emo Rap, Guitar, Piano, Soft Bass