Wordless

There’s not enough room for the words
To fit on one page,
Little boys who won’t know their dad
When they reach that certain age.

This wasn’t how I pictured
Running into you again,
I thought time would bring forgiveness…
Not an ending we couldn’t mend.

Got letters never mailed out,
Your name still lights my phone,
Some nights I catch myself talking
Like you’re coming home.

I replay old conversations
Trying to change the end,
Like somehow love could rewrite
Where we’ve been.

Would you hear me
If I cried up at the sky?
Would heaven even notice
If I asked it why?
All these apologies
Still trapped inside my chest…
You left this heart beating
Wordless.

Your boys are gonna ask me
Why you couldn’t stay,
And I’ll search for something gentle
Enough to say.

I’ll tell them you were human,
That you loved them true,
But I’ll never find the language
To explain losing you.

I saw you lying there,
Said everything I knew,
Hoping somewhere deep inside
You heard me breaking through.
I thought love might wake you,
Thought prayers might change fate…
I didn’t know goodbye
Could come that late.

Now I talk to heaven
When the night won’t let me sleep,
Say your name in headlights
On empty streets.
All the things we never said
Still echo in my mind…

Your silence didn’t end —
It just became mine.

And I’m still driving home…
Wordless tonight.

Country, female singer.