Half Awake

Mm…

Yeah…

I’ve been waking up in pieces,

Counting hours I don’t need.

Every thought feels unfinished,

Like a sentence missing me.

Your name sits on my tongue still,

But I don’t say it out loud.

I learned silence talks louder

When there’s nobody around.

I don’t know what I’m holding onto,

But I know I’m not letting go.

Every night feels like a rerun

Of a life I almost know.

I’m half awake, half gone,

Drifting where I don’t belong.

If I stay right here too long,

I might fade into the song.

I don’t need you to stay,

I just need you to know—

I’m still learning how to feel

Without breaking too slow.

Mm…

Half awake…

Yeah…

I keep my heart in low power,

Save the rest for another day.

I don’t cry like I used to,

I just let it ache.

Every smile feels borrowed,

Every laugh feels thin.

I’m not broken, just tired

Of pretending I’m in.

I don’t ask for explanations,

I don’t need a sign.

I just sit with the feeling

And let it pass my mind.

I’m half awake, half gone,

Floating through the dark till dawn.

Every memory feels wrong

When it plays back in my bones.

I don’t need you to stay,

I don’t need control—

I just wish this quiet ache

Didn’t feel like home.

Maybe I’m scared of the quiet,

Maybe I’m scared to heal.

Maybe I miss who I was

Before I learned how to feel.

I talk to the ceiling at night,

Like it knows me the best.

I don’t ask it for answers,

Just somewhere to rest.

I’m half awake, still here,

Still breathing through the fear.

If I disappear a bit,

Know I’m trying to be real.

I don’t need saving now,

I just need to grow—

Even sadness has a way

Of teaching me to go slow.

Mm…

Half awake…

Still here.