Save Me From Myself

Verse 1
I been prayin’ with my eyes shut, scared to see the truth,
Every mirror feels like court, every thought’s a noose.
I keep sayin’ I got faith, but I doubt it when I’m weak,
Sunday mornings sound so holy, Monday nights I barely breathe.

I wear smiles like a mask, keep the chaos outta frame,
But the louder that I preach it, the more I feel ashamed.
If You’re listenin’, I swear I’m tryna change who I’ve been,
But I keep fallin’ back in love with everything that sins.

Pre-Chorus (pull the beat way back)
I don’t need a sign in the sky or answers explained,
I’m just tired of fightin’ myself every day—

SCREAM (let it break, sustain 3-5 seconds):
GOOOOOOOOOD—

Chorus (beat crashes in)
Save me from the mess I made,
From the thoughts I can’t escape,
If I’m lost, don’t turn away,
God, save me from myself.

I’m on my knees, I’m outta breath,
Fightin’ shadows I regret,
If You’re real, then please don’t wait—
God, save me from myself.

Verse 2
I been runnin’ from conviction like it’s chasin’ me down,
Every step away from You got me closer to the ground.
I don’t wanna be a warning or a story they tell,
“How he had it all together but was burnin’ in hell.”

If grace is free, why do I feel like I gotta earn it?
Why does love feel distant every time that I’m hurtin’?
I’m scared You see the parts of me I try to deny,
The ones I bury deep and hope are lost in time.

Pre-Chorus (again, even quieter)
I don’t need heaven right now, I just need relief,
I’m losin’ this war inside of me—

SCREAM (longer, sustain 5-7 seconds more broken):
GOOOOOOOOOD—

Final Chorus (bigger, emotional)
Save me from the mess I made,
From the man I’ve learned to hate,
If I fall, don’t let me break,
God, save me from myself.

I’m still fightin’, I’m still here,
Even drownin’ in my fear,
If You hear me, don’t delay—
God, save me from myself.

Outro (soft, exhausted)
Even if I doubt You…
Please don’t doubt me.

Dark alt-rock/rap confession about faith, guilt, and inner war, built around a raw broken scream crying out to God.