On edge

Lately I been thinking different

Got a lot sitting on my mind

When I get back I ain’t easing in

I’m putting everything on the line

I’m tired of living halfway

Tired of feeling behind

I know what I’m supposed to be

I just ain’t there right now in time

I got more to handle now

This ain’t just about me

Everything I do from here

Gotta build what we need

I been picturing the house done right

Every weak spot replaced

Making something solid out of it

Something we can’t shake

I ain’t coming back the same

I’m locked in when I land

Every move more serious

Everything got a plan

But if I’m real I don’t even know

If you gon’ see it the same

Like I could give it everything

And it still won’t change

Like I be trying to show it

But it don’t come across

Like I’m carrying all this weight

But you don’t see the cost

I don’t say it out loud

I just keep it inside

Try to stay focused on building

While I’m fighting my pride

Headphones in I tune it out

World fade when I’m locked

Trying to turn these ideas real

Trying to make something pop

I don’t got nobody guiding me

I’m learning as I go

Trying to take what I know I got

And turn it into growth

But it’s hard when you putting in everything

And the results don’t show

Feel like I’m stuck in motion

Like I’m moving but moving slow

Some days I wake up motivated

Other days I feel drained

Still I get up and go chase it

Even when nothing change

I been giving it everything

Still feel like I’m behind

Like I’m racing against time

But I can’t cross the line

Bills still stacking up

While I’m stacking these hours

Trying to turn effort into something

But it’s losing its power

I don’t wanna keep saying

“I’m trying” and that’s it

I’m trying to actually show it

Turn it real make it stick

I know I’m not where I need to be

But I’m not where I was

And I keep reminding myself

I’m doing this for us

Even when it feel like nothing

Even when it feel off

I can’t stop now I’m too deep

I done came too far

When I get back I’m different

No more thinking I move

Everything I been saying

I’ma actually prove

I’m fixing what’s broken

In the house and in me

Trying to build something real

Something you can believe

I’m tired of second guessing

Tired of feeling unsure

I just want something stable

Something solid and pure

But I just hope when I do it

You don’t act like it’s small

‘Cause I’m putting everything in this

Trying to give you my all

Lately I been thinking different

I can feel it in me

I ain’t where I wanna be

But I’m closer than you see

I’m doing this for us

Even when it feel like nothing

Even when I feel stuck

I’m still turning it to something

I’m doing this for us

I can’t stop I came too far

Even if you don’t see it

I know exactly who we are

I can’t stop now

I came too far

Even when it don’t show

I know who we are

I’m building now