Jacob

I fight, I fight

Just to breathe, just to breathe

Yeah, yeah

Just breathe

Ah… mmm… uh…

I’m wrestling my own angels

just like Jacob in Genesis 23:23

Take a deep breath, one, two, three

Blowing out the bitter smoke of nicotine

Looking for a stronger chemistry

to pierce my blood-brain barrier

Uh… ah… mmm…

Breath in, hold it, heave it out

Ah… ah…

These angels won’t let me die

Searching for something other than my own fears in the night

Something strong enough

to drag me over to the other side

Ah… mmm… uh… oh…

Thoughts ruminate

Inside my skull

The night feels plastic

Wrapped around my chest

every drag a desperate prayer

As if we’re awake

asking for a way

to silence the war within

Ah… mmm… uh…

These angels won’t let me die

Searching for something other than my own fears in the night

Something strong enough

to drag me over to the other side

Ah… mmm… uh…

Climbing from the abyss

pulled back into the black of my mind

Yeah… uh… I fight

Still here… I breathe

These angels won’t let me die — no, no

Barrier… shatter it, shatter it, shatter it

Ah… ah… mmm…

These angels won’t let me die

Searching for something other than my own fears in the night

Something strong enough

to cross me over to the other side

Ah… mmm… uh… oh…

I’m battling my own angels like Jacob

Genesis 23:23

These angels won’t let me die

Ah… mmm… uh…

Fading… fading… fading…

Ah… mmm… uh… yeah — yeah — yeah