Edge of the Exit

I been starin at the ceiling like it’s talkin back

Scrollin through my old mistakes, every one a trap

Friends say “hit my line,” I leave ’em on read

’Cause I don’t got words, just a war in my head

Room dirty like the thoughts I keep hid

Voices in the vent say “you ain’t shit, kid”

Mama think I’m fine from the pics I send

But the smile in the frame got a cracked-up end

I don’t wanna be here, I just wanna stop

Wanna shut my eyes, let the noise all drop

If I disappear, would it change a lot?

Feelin like a burden that the world forgot

I don’t wanna breathe, I just wanna rest

Tired of this weight crushin on my chest

If this is life, I already lost

Standin on the edge, countin every cost

Everybody got plans, I just got pain

They talk future tense, I’m stuck in the rain

Therapist ask “tell me how you feel”

I laugh like “honestly, it don’t feel real”

’Cause I wake up tired from the same old fight

Fake “I’m good” texts just to be polite

Tryin not to fall for that late-night call

Where the dark in my mind says “end it all”

I don’t wanna be here, I just wanna stop

Wanna shut my eyes, let the noise all drop

If I disappear, would it change a lot?

Feelin like a burden that the world forgot

I don’t wanna breathe, I just wanna rest

Tired of this weight crushin on my chest

If this is life, I already lost

Standin on the edge, countin every cost

But if I go, who gon miss my laugh?

Who gon roast my fits, talk about the past?

Who gon hold my mom when she breaks that bad news?

So I write one more verse, tie my hands to the truth

I don’t wanna be here, I just wanna stop

Wanna shut my eyes, let the noise all drop

If I disappear, would it change a lot?

Feelin like a burden that the world forgot

I don’t wanna breathe, I just wanna rest

Tired of this weight crushin on my chest

If this is life, I already lost

Standin on the edge, tryna count the cost