I know I messed up

Baby I don't even know what I'm talking about love

When I don't love myself

I know I messed up

And the words can't describe how sorry I am

Just Do you remember The times

I'm Talking about the good old times and the bad times

When we aren't fighting

Me rubbing your face with my hands

Kissing you for hours

Looking into your eyes feeling the fear sink in

So in love every moment felt like a dream

I knew we weren't perfect...

But you just had to fuck everything up

What are we doing talking about love

our future’s crushed

So I'm sorry

I’ve been lying for too long

To everyone in my life

Saying I’m okay,

Smiling while I break inside

I can barely sleep

Trauma messing with my head

And the pain in my chest won't let me be

Breaking my own heart every dam time try to love again

What am I talking about love

When I don't even love myself

trying to move forward

But it harder when you the only thing I think about

I’m so sorry I let the fear of losing you overnight control me

Looking into your eyes...

I found a part of myself

I thought I lost

That I'm glad I found

But it too late our future’s crushed

All because I was a coward

To afraid to lose myself again after the bad times

The regrets kills me every dam time I think about

Your smile

I just want to hold you

Intel the sunsets on our faces

Hoping I could love you again

But I know I won't get that chance

I'm sorry I knew I mess everything up

looking back I was a fool to let you go

All my struggles was because of Me

The blame became to much but I have to let go

I know that now

Please don't leave me

I was a coward to give up

I know

I kept running from things I shouldn't

it still have a hold on me

Even when I tell myself it doesn't

But the past hunts me every dam time

As I'm trying to forget about all the bad times

And think about the good times if they are any

I know our dreams are crushed

And it all my fault

All because I was to afraid to lose you

I just ended up fucking everything up

I wish I was perfect for you baby

but i know I'm not

And it all my fault

I know that now

I just hope it not to late

Just let me love you again