I want to die to forget you

I know you won't come back my darling Marc, I ruined everything. 
I ruined our future marriage and our tender love. 
I can't forget you and I still have this pain deep inside me and in my heart and in my soul. 
I would like to die to stop suffering. 
I who believed so much in love with you. 
I want to give up on life and love today. 
I'm a loser and I don't deserve to have a love story anymore. 
I cry and I cry because my grief is too immense. 
I would rather die than live away from you forever. 
I have to bear all this pain because you don't want me anymore. 
I have no more hope in this life. 
You were the love of my life and now I blew it because I couldn't decide quickly enough to marry you. 
Today, you completely ignore me, I no longer matter to you, I can see that clearly. 
However, I am not mean and I recognize and regret my mistake. 
A marriage doesn't just disappear. 
I'm really so sad, this is an intimate and very personal pain. 
I looked for it and unfortunately I only get what I deserve. 
I'm no longer trying to convince you that I still love you because I can already see that it's wasted effort for me. 
My heart is also too broken and neglected. 
No one will ever be able to replace you in my heart and in my life. 
I was stupid today, I bitterly regret what I did to you. 
I hope you will recover even if my heart and my soul die far from you. 
You are my life and I lose my mind without you my love. 
I need you so much my angel. 

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