Unlovable (In My Head)

[Intro]
Cold room
Phone face down
Same four walls
Same dark sound (yeah)
[Verse 1]
Every mirror says the same thing
"Who could ever really want this?"
Scrolling through my own memories
Like they some lost church I once missed
I remember Sunday mornings
Coffee, laughter, tangled sheets
Now it's takeout in the silence
Talking bitter to my screens
[Chorus]
I feel unlovable, unlovable
Like my heart got stamped "return to sender"
All this space in my bed
But I push every name I remember
I was truly loved once
Now it hurts just to trust my own touch
Unlovable, unlovable
Tell me who could ever love this much (yeah)
[Verse 2]
Friends say, "you gon’ find somebody"
I just nod and change the song
Every "hi" turns into ghosting
So I learned to walk alone
Got my jacket in the summer
Just to hide the shaking hands
I keep joking with the strangers
So they never see the cracks
[Chorus]
I feel unlovable, unlovable
Like my heart got stamped "return to sender"
All this space in my bed
But I push every name I remember
I was truly loved once
Now it hurts just to trust my own touch
Unlovable, unlovable
Tell me who could ever love this much
[Bridge]
But if you knew the way I stay
When it gets heavy, I don't break
If you could see the love I save
You'd never walk away (never walk away)
Maybe I'm not broken
Just too deep for shallow waves
Maybe I'm not hopeless
Just still healing from the quake (yeah, yeah)
[Chorus]
I feel unlovable, unlovable
But a small voice says "you deserve better"
Leave a light in my chest
For the one who will see past the terror
I was truly loved once
That means I can be loved again, right?
Unlovable, unlovable
Till somebody calls me love and it fits just right (oh)

rap, Dark choir trap with male vocals; ominous low choir pads and pitched-down vocal chops under a slow, knocking beat. Sparse, subby bass in verses with whispered doubles; chorus widens with stacked gothic harmonies, distant bells, and a soaring top-line. Snare rolls and reverse choirs lift into a final, slightly brighter refrain that still sits in shadow.