Epic Collapse

Its hard knowing what to do

When the love you thought was true

Has faded from view

She seems unwilling to renew

Twenty plus years of life

Husband and wife

At one time best of friends

Has it all now reached the end

I had gotten off track

But I found my way back

We wasted too many nights

With arguments and fights

I understand her anger

That I put her heart in danger

I saw my ways must be corrected

Too little to late i had been rejected

Twenty plus years of life

Husband and wife

At one time best of friends

Has it all now reached the end

Efforts to change to be a better me

Still she has seemingly decided we are not meant to be

With words she expresses her lasting discontent

I massively overvalued what my love meant

Disconnected and distant is her permanent state

Time with me is not desired im lonely and I wait

Im hollow numb and completely broken hearted

I've held on way too long afraid of being parted

Twenty plus years of life

Husband and wife

At one time best of friends

Has it all now reached the end

I love her and cherish her with all of my being

She ignores what feel and chooses not to be seeing

She says alot to tear me down and shows no respect

She claims to be a victim and claims to be perfect

Its been years of fading hope pain and tears

She is merciless as she weaponizes and exploits my biggest fears

Dont get me wrong she can be cruel but is not bad or evil

Shes been hurt and is trying to avoid another pain filled upheaval

I screwed up i caused her pain

Now its driving me insane

I am lonely unwanted and in pain

My tears fall like rain

No relief or reward even when I try

All I have for comfort now is knowing one day I will die