Epic Collapse

Its hard knowing what to do
When the love you thought was true
Has faded from view
She seems unwilling to renew 

Twenty plus years of life
Husband and wife
At one time best of friends
Has it all now reached the end 

I had gotten off track
But I found my way back
We wasted too many nights
With arguments and fights
I understand her anger
That I put her heart in danger
I saw my ways must be corrected
Too little to late i had been rejected 

Twenty plus years of life
Husband and wife
At one time best of friends
Has it all now reached the end 

Efforts to change to be a better me
Still she has seemingly decided we are not meant to be
With words she expresses her lasting discontent
I massively overvalued what my love meant
Disconnected and distant is her permanent state
Time with me is not desired im lonely and I wait
Im hollow numb and completely broken hearted
I've held on way too long afraid of being parted 

Twenty plus years of life
Husband and wife
At one time best of friends
Has it all now reached the end 

I love her and cherish her with all of my being
She ignores what feel and chooses not to be seeing
She says alot to tear me down and shows no respect
She claims to be a victim and claims to be perfect
Its been years of fading hope pain and tears
She is merciless as she weaponizes and exploits my biggest fears 

Dont get me wrong she can be cruel but is not bad or evil
Shes been hurt and is trying to avoid another pain filled upheaval 

I screwed up i caused her pain
Now its driving me insane 
I am lonely unwanted and in pain
My tears fall like rain
No relief or reward even when I try
All I have for comfort now is knowing one day I will die

Synth pop, heavy bass, female