there’s a fire in my eyes but I’m not sure if it burns the same the fading light with every day I remember my hopes like an impossible prize my dreams and aspirations that I can no longer claim they seem so distant now and just out of sight I used to be so ambitious but now I feel lonely and far too empty all I can hear are my helpless cries almost vicious all that fills me now is what drains me like a fading shadow during sundown a lost wish a shattered dream a broken promise a faded photo worn beyond repair no longer wanted no longer needed a fragile ghost I keep the silence weighing in my chest my voice is hollow i yearn for guidance soft and true a gentle whisper to lead my way through I feel as though no one understands I’m afraid of how they’ll judge my stomach churns my mind never stops thinking of every mistake I’ve ever made on constant replay like a broken record sharp, piercing through my soul that burns of all the thoughts I have no one will ever know hope and disappointment love and hate such a fine line what’s behind haunts me a terrifying echo of memories I can’t out run and what is ahead scares me of what I might become a dark and deep secret waters untouchable the present is like a surprise gone wrong A throbbing tide with overwhelming waves inside I feel so turbulent like thunder and lightning but on the outside I lie to seem alright a smile always on my lips my spirit neeeds an adjustment my only desire is to be calm inside the fire is slowly dying flickering It isn’t dead but it’s barely living is it true all clouds have a silver lining? I still wake up everyday with the smallest spark enough to reignite a blazing fire despite my fear there is still a light in the dark i wake up and think of the blessings I have deep down a glimmer of hope lives In my soul everyday my mind and heart are doomed for war my brain wants to protect my heart wants to love logic and impulse it makes me laugh strength can only come with pain wisdom with suffering of all I’ve known love with courage where the spirit dwells I know it was never going to be easy but my tears are like hot salty rain my tears fall too fast resembling lost hope with every one I don’t want to lose myself to temporary pleasure nothing comes without a consequence my soul must continue on my heart and mind will learn to work together before I lose myself in everything my fire my hope all my dreams and desires [Female Vocal]

The smallest spark