Doctor walked in face like stone Words hit hard cut straight 2 the bone Stage 2 maybe 3 its in ur chest Heartbeat stopped man I failed the test Yesterday I was living just fine just me Today I'm a patient with a new enemy My mama cried quiet tears soaked the floor My dad punched the wall screaming no more My friends they don't know what to say or do Some vanish like shadows some stick like glue I feel weak but I fake being strong Staring at the mirror like what went wrong Chemo drips poison but it's life I'm sipping Some days I'm drowning some days I'm gripping Lost my hair but not my will Every pills a hill but I climb still I'm angry I'm sad I'm hopeful I'm mad Life's a cruel joke but I'm in the last laugh To my family I see your pain You carry my storm you feel my rain But don't give up no don't lose sight I'm more than this war I'm still your light To the fighters out there who battle the same You're not just a patient you're a name you're a flame Cancer sucks yeah it takes and it steals Rips apart dreams leaves scars that don't heal But I'm here still standing won't let it define This fight’s not just theirs this fight's also mine Doctor said the word it hit like a train No warning no signal just a flood of pain Life flipped in a second thought I had time But the clock's ticking now and the hill’s a climb Tears on the floor can't breathe through the weight Tried to call someone but words came late Mirror shows a face that don't feel like mine How do you fight when the war’s inside Mom's in the corner praying for grace Dad's trying hard but I see his face Sister's cracking jokes but her laugh is thin We're all in the ring but it's me that's pinned Needles and pills the routine sets in Days feel heavy like they'll never begin Hope’s a shadow but it's still in the room Fighting for light when the world feels gloom Some days I scream some days I pray Some days I laugh just to push it away But every moment I'm here I'll stay This battle’s mine I won't let it stray Cancer sucks yeah it tears you apart Breaks your body but it can't touch your heart Through the anger through the tears we rise Resilience grows where the pain collides Needles in my veins drip drop the meds Head shaved clean but I still hold my head Doctors speak in riddles charts in their hands I'm here on this table making a stand Every pill a mountain every hour a climb But this hart beats steady 1 day at a time Chemos a thief it steals my taste Food like cardboard no time to waste Skin pale as moonlight nights feeling long But I hum a little tune keep my soul strong Radiation burns scars on the skin But deep in my chest the fire won't dim Family in the waiting room love in their eyes They keep me breathing my sunrise Every side effect every fite i face I find a piece of me in every space Cancer sucks but I'm still here Thru the pain thru the fear Hold my hand wipe the tears Were stronger than this louder than fear Cancer sucks Dedicated to everyone