Before the Storm

[Intro: Melodic + Distorted Vocal Layer]
I miss the light before the rain came pouring
Now I’m stuck inside a mind that’s always warning
Used to smile, now I barely even fake it
I was whole, now I’m breaking, can’t escape it

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[Verse 1: Rapped, heavy bass, slow flow]
Back then, I was loud, I was proud, I was fearless
Now I’m in the mirror like “Who the hell is this?”
Used to dream big, now I barely even sleep
Every night a war, yeah, my thoughts cut deep

I was that kid with the spark in his eyes
Now I’m just numb, tryna live, but I lie
People say “you changed,” I don’t know how to explain
Got a smile on my face but inside there’s pain

Every step I take feels like I’m sinkin’
Drownin’ in a glass, whiskey thoughts and overthinkin’
Lookin’ back at me, man I barely even know him
Runnin’ from the past but depression keeps on showin’

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[Hook: Melodic, haunting, reverb-heavy]
I miss who I was before the storm
Before the demons found a place in my form
Before the panic attacks, the fake laughs
I miss that boy who never looked back

Can you take me back to those days again?
Before I felt broken in my skin
I miss my old self, yeah I really do
But he’s gone now… buried in the truth

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[Verse 2: Double-time flow, aggressive tone]
Therapy ain’t helpin’, meds just numb
Still wake up wishin’ I could run
From the scars that I hide so well
But inside it’s a war, it’s a personal hell

Tired of the silence, tired of the fake peace
Smile in the crowd but I’m screaming underneath
They say “hold on,” but my grip’s gone cold
The fire went out, now I’m stuck in the mold

Can’t love me if I don’t love myself
But the mirror keeps showin’ someone else
Used to be strong, now I’m breakin’ in pieces
My soul ain’t dead, but it sure ain’t breathin’

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[Hook: Melodic + layered harmonies]
I miss who I was before the storm
Before the demons found a place in my form
Before the panic attacks, the fake laughs
I miss that boy who never looked back

Can you take me back to those days again?
Before I felt broken in my skin
I miss my old self, yeah I really do
But he’s gone now… buried in the truth

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[Outro: Whispered then screamed fade-out]
I miss me… I miss me…
(But I can’t go back, I can’t go back)
I miss me… I miss me…
(Who am I now? Who the f**k is that?)

emo trap/alternative rap