Before the Storm

I miss the light before the rain came pouring

Now I’m stuck inside a mind that’s always warning

Used to smile, now I barely even fake it

I was whole, now I’m breaking, can’t escape it

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Back then, I was loud, I was proud, I was fearless

Now I’m in the mirror like “Who the hell is this?”

Used to dream big, now I barely even sleep

Every night a war, yeah, my thoughts cut deep

I was that kid with the spark in his eyes

Now I’m just numb, tryna live, but I lie

People say “you changed,” I don’t know how to explain

Got a smile on my face but inside there’s pain

Every step I take feels like I’m sinkin’

Drownin’ in a glass, whiskey thoughts and overthinkin’

Lookin’ back at me, man I barely even know him

Runnin’ from the past but depression keeps on showin’

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I miss who I was before the storm

Before the demons found a place in my form

Before the panic attacks, the fake laughs

I miss that boy who never looked back

Can you take me back to those days again?

Before I felt broken in my skin

I miss my old self, yeah I really do

But he’s gone now… buried in the truth

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Therapy ain’t helpin’, meds just numb

Still wake up wishin’ I could run

From the scars that I hide so well

But inside it’s a war, it’s a personal hell

Tired of the silence, tired of the fake peace

Smile in the crowd but I’m screaming underneath

They say “hold on,” but my grip’s gone cold

The fire went out, now I’m stuck in the mold

Can’t love me if I don’t love myself

But the mirror keeps showin’ someone else

Used to be strong, now I’m breakin’ in pieces

My soul ain’t dead, but it sure ain’t breathin’

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I miss who I was before the storm

Before the demons found a place in my form

Before the panic attacks, the fake laughs

I miss that boy who never looked back

Can you take me back to those days again?

Before I felt broken in my skin

I miss my old self, yeah I really do

But he’s gone now… buried in the truth

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I miss me… I miss me…

(But I can’t go back, I can’t go back)

I miss me… I miss me…

(Who am I now? Who the f**k is that?)