I DIDN’T DIE ⸻ 🎤 Intro (Spoken – low, trembling) I’ve been called everything Except “enough.” I’ve been left More times than I can count. I’ve been the little girl nobody chose… And the woman everybody leaned on. But I’m still here. (Heavy drums begin.) ⸻ Verse 1 They made a child pick a home Like love was something you divide Mama or Grandma — choose one While I was breaking inside. I just wanted my mama to want me Wanted to feel like I was first But she kept choosing somebody else And I kept swallowing hurt. Daddy said I’d never be nothing Said it like it was a fact Every name he ever called me Still echoes in the back. I was seven years old learning What rejection feels like Before I ever learned multiplication I learned how to survive. ⸻ Pre-Chorus Nobody saved me. Nobody came. So I became the hero They never gave. ⸻ Chorus (Big, emotional, gritty) And I didn’t die. Even when I wanted to, I didn’t die. Through the pills, through the pain Through the tears I couldn’t cry I survived. Through the abuse and the lies Through the nights I said goodbye When I thought I had no fight I stayed alive. You can leave me. You can doubt me. But you can’t say I didn’t try. I didn’t die. ⸻ Verse 2 Fourteen thinking that was forever Sixteen holding life in my hands The day after my birthday candles I became somebody’s whole world and didn’t understand. Still scared of the dark Still scared of being alone But I had a baby in my arms So I learned how to be strong. Abuse changed faces But it always felt the same From family to the father of my babies Love always came with shame. Five little hearts beating Looking up at me I didn’t have time to fall apart They needed me to breathe. Signed divorce papers shaking But my backbone didn’t crack If I had to be mama and daddy Then I carried all of that. ⸻ Pre-Chorus 2 How many times can a heart restart? How many times can it bend? How many times can you call it love When it leaves again? ⸻ Chorus (Bigger) And I didn’t die. When depression said “don’t try,” When the mirror said “you’re not enough,” I survived. Through every man that walked away Through every promise that didn’t stay When I felt myself fade to gray I stayed. You can bury me in pain You can drag me through the rain But I built strength from every goodbye. I didn’t die. ⸻ Verse 3 (The Breaking Point – stripped, vulnerable) There was a night I hit the bottom So quiet it was loud Swallowed every ounce of hurt Didn’t wanna make a sound. I was tired of being strong Tired of holding up the sky Tired of being everybody’s rock When I was breaking inside. So I took what I could find Thought maybe this would end it all Didn’t think about tomorrow Didn’t think I’d wake at all. But I did. Hospital lights above me Tears I couldn’t hide And for the first time in my whole life I chose not to die. I chose help. I chose breath. I chose my babies over death. ⸻ Bridge (Choir hums softly) I survived my parents. I survived their