I’m Nothing Like I Used To Be

[Tempo: 148 BPM

Key: D minor

Vocals: Flat in verses, strained in chorus

Structure: Quiet verses → heavy chorus → half-time breakdown → final chorus]

I wake up late, same ceiling crack

Same excuses talking back

I wear my name like hand-me-downs

Nothing fits, but I don’t sound proud

I fake a smile, I miss the cue

I nod along like this is new

I tell myself I’m still okay

Then change the subject, walk away

I don’t feel low, I don’t feel high

I don’t know when I stopped trying

If this is calm, then why do I

Feel like something’s saying goodbye?

I let the good parts slip away

I made a mess of what was me

I keep rewinding just to see

I’m nothing like I used to be

I scroll my life and feel removed

Like I’m just killing time in rooms

I talk about who I “used to be”

Like he moved out and left me keys

I measure time in what I’ve lost

In almosts, maybes, double-crossed

I swear I’ll change, just not tonight

I make peace with the losing fight

I let the good parts slip away

I made a mess of what was me

I keep rewinding just to see

I’m nothing like I used to be

[Bridge] (Half-Time Breakdown)

I let it happen

I watched it go

I didn’t stop it

I didn’t know

(repeat — last line screamed)

[Final Chorus] (Strained / Full)

I let the good parts slip away

I made a mess of what was me

I keep rewinding just to see

I’m nothing like I used to be

(Guitars ring out, feedback hum

Drums cut early

One last breath into the mic)