I love you 2

There is something
In my heart
Telling me I love them both
I can't tell the love apart

It's confusing
To choose who stays
If I let go of the one I love
I'll regret it forever, I'm afraid

I want to scream
I want to cry
I want to be with both
I want to not have to say goodbye

Cos without you
I'm incomplete
& without you
I can't breathe

Inside my mind, there are 2 sides
With this man, I feel safe to cry
But without him when he's gone
I feel so free it feels so wrong

And with that man the other side
I feel safe to be alive
I don't have to show up as less
But the payoff is he can't handle my mess

So do I let them both go
How am I supposed to know
Do I just make a choice and try make it stick
Forget the other I didn't pick
But how do you tell the difference
Between a healthy love & attachments
They could be either or none
Im going crazy, how do I know he's the one.

If I wake up tomorrow
In a pool of regret
There's nothing I can do
Except try like hell to forget

Each has helped me see who I am
How I love and what I look for in a man
Both have also brought me to tears
Its not like one is better for me
Their differences are my complimentary
One half of masculine polarity
Each possess almost equally
And thats why I really need
Both of them to lead

But they wont
They cant
Their egos wont allow
I know
I cant
Expect that any how
Cos thats not fair
Asking them to share
And to be so needy
I seem so greedy
Two men just for me
It wont work you'll see

And still here I am again
Loving both of these men
So I think that makes it clear
Ill choose neither & end it there.

Soulful gutsy female vocal, strong power chords, heartfelt violin, epic vocal fills, dramatic intro, mid tempo ballad