I love you 2

There is something

In my heart

Telling me I love them both

I can't tell the love apart

It's confusing

To choose who stays

If I let go of the one I love

I'll regret it forever, I'm afraid

I want to scream

I want to cry

I want to be with both

I want to not have to say goodbye

Cos without you

I'm incomplete

& without you

I can't breathe

Inside my mind, there are 2 sides

With this man, I feel safe to cry

But without him when he's gone

I feel so free it feels so wrong

And with that man the other side

I feel safe to be alive

I don't have to show up as less

But the payoff is he can't handle my mess

So do I let them both go

How am I supposed to know

Do I just make a choice and try make it stick

Forget the other I didn't pick

But how do you tell the difference

Between a healthy love & attachments

They could be either or none

Im going crazy, how do I know he's the one.

If I wake up tomorrow

In a pool of regret

There's nothing I can do

Except try like hell to forget

Each has helped me see who I am

How I love and what I look for in a man

Both have also brought me to tears

Its not like one is better for me

Their differences are my complimentary

One half of masculine polarity

Each possess almost equally

And thats why I really need

Both of them to lead

But they wont

They cant

Their egos wont allow

I know

I cant

Expect that any how

Cos thats not fair

Asking them to share

And to be so needy

I seem so greedy

Two men just for me

It wont work you'll see

And still here I am again

Loving both of these men

So I think that makes it clear

Ill choose neither & end it there.