Sad Boy Season

[Verse 1]  
Left my jacket at your place  
Like I’m giving you a reason  
To call me back  
To call me out  
**(please… just once more…)**  
On my off-and-on believing  

Scrolling through our photos  
Like I’m looking for a verdict  
Every smile a little shaky  
**(you saw it too, right?)**  
Guess the cracks were always working  
**(god I’m tired…)**  

[Chorus]  
It’s sad boy season  
Heart on the floor for no good reason  
**(again… why again…)**  
Laughing in texts  
Then I stop reading  
**(haha… fuck)**  
Say I’m fine  
But I don’t mean it  
**(I’m not / never was / you know I’m not)**  

Yeah  
It’s sad boy season  
Blaming the rain  
But I’m the reason  
**(my bad…)**  
Car in park  
But the mind keeps speeding  
Say I’m fine  
But I don’t mean it  
**(don’t mean it… don’t mean any of it…)**  

[Verse 2]  
Told my friends I’m busy  
They all know that that means hiding  
**(they always know…)**  
TV on  
Volume high  
Just to drown my own deciding  
**(can’t even decide to stop deciding…)**  

Sleep with all the lights on  
Like I’m scared of what I’m thinking  
Every “maybe we should talk”  
Ends in silence  
Ends in sinking  
**(sinking… yeah…)**  

[Chorus]  
It’s sad boy season  
Heart on the floor for no good reason  
**(again… why again…)**  
Laughing in texts  
Then I stop reading  
**(haha… fuck)**  
Say I’m fine  
But I don’t mean it  
**(I’m not / never was / you know I’m not)**  

Yeah  
It’s sad boy season  
Blaming the rain  
But I’m the reason  
**(my bad…)**  
Car in park  
But the mind keeps speeding  
Say I’m fine  
But I don’t mean it  
**(don’t mean it… don’t mean any of it…)**  

[Bridge]  
Maybe I like this ache  
**(maybe I need it…)**  
‘Cause it feels like I had something  
If I let it fade away  
Was it ever even loving?  
**(was it?)** … **(was any of it real?)**  
**(I don’t wanna let it go yet…)**  

[Final Chorus – build with layers]  
It’s sad boy season  
Heart on the floor for no good reason  
Laughing in texts  
Then I stop reading  
Say I’m fine  
But I don’t mean it  
**(I never mean it)**  
**(I’m so fucking far from fine…)**  

Yeah  
It’s sad boy season  
Blaming the rain  
But I’m the reason  
Car in park  
But the mind keeps speeding  
Say I’m fine  
But I don’t mean it  
**(don’t mean it…)**  
**(don’t…)**  
**(…)**  

[Optional fade-out / outro]  
**(don’t mean it…)**  
**(don’t…)**  
**(…)**  

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