I Don’t Want To Hate You

I walk through places where we used to be

Laughter still echoes in the memories

But now your silence is louder than sound

And I’m the only one still hanging around

I tell myself I’m better off this way

But healing won’t happen in a single day

I bite my tongue so I don’t curse your name

But that doesn’t mean I don’t feel the flame

I’m stuck between the blame and the ache

Trying to forgive, trying not to break

My pain says I hate you

But my heart screams I still love you

I’m torn in the middle, can’t lie or rise above you

I wish I could forget you

Or make you feel it too

But I don’t want to hate you

God knows that’s not true

I gave you space like you said you’d need

But I think that was just your way to leave

No goodbye, no fight—just the quiet sting

You disappeared and took everything

And I’m still here, caught in the crossfire

Of all we were and all we let expire

My pain says I hate you

But my heart screams I still love you

I’m torn in the middle, can’t lie or rise above you

I wish I could forget you

Or make you feel it too

But I don’t want to hate you

God knows that’s not true

If I could unlove you, I think I would

But I’ve always felt deeper than I understood

I’m not mad you left—I’m mad you didn’t look back

Not even once

No not once…

My pain says I hate you

But my heart says I still love you

And my soul whispers grace

Even if you never come back to this place

I’m learning to breathe without blaming you

And I don’t want to hate you…

Even if I do.

No I don’t want to hate you…

But my heart is still tangled up in you…