This is Not What I Want

{Verse 1}
I'm at the edge of a rocky cliff right now
Half of me wants to take the easy way out
Just jump off and go down down down
The other half says I should keep fighting on a little longer 
The pencil's in your hand my story is not over
Tho at times it can feel like torture 

{Chorus}
I pray and pray but all I get is silence 
I open my ears listening but it's just quiet 
Thought our relationship was strong and locked
I didn't know it was in a knot
This is not what I want 
I need all this doubt to come to a stop

{Verse 2}
I'm slowly at the brink of falling apart
It's just much simpler to lose heart 
Consumed deeper and deeper by the dark
I'm teetering I'm about to lose faith
Each new thing is testing me drawing me away
I need confirmation I'll see better days

{Chorus}
I pray and pray but all I get is silence 
I open my ears listening but it's just quiet 
Thought our relationship was strong and locked
I didn't know it was in a knot
This is not what I want 
I need all this doubt to come to a stop

{Bridge} 
Please save me from going down under
This is not what I'm after
Please remove this anger built up inside
Help me to keep fighting this fight 

{Chorus}
I pray and pray but all I get is silence 
I open my ears listening but it's just quiet 
Thought our relationship was strong and locked
I didn't know it was in a knot
This is not what I want 
I need all this doubt to come to a stop

{Outro} 
Lord I need you, only you

R&B, soulful, dramatic piano, powerful, ad-libs, vocal riffs, female vocals