Here I Am Again (InfiniteHymns)

I said I’d be stronger this time

Swore I wouldn’t cross that line

Promised You and promised myself

I’d finally leave it all behind

But the weight of my old ways

Still knows how to pull me in

I wear regret like second skin

And call it “trying” once again

I run when I feel ashamed

Hide when I don’t feel worthy

I hear the echo of my name

And wonder why You still call me

I build my walls with fear and doubt

Convince my heart I’m too far gone

But every road that leads me out

Just brings me back where I belong

I thought mercy had a limit

Thought grace would run out on me

But love was waiting in the silence

Right where I used to be

So here I am again

On my knees, hands open wide

No excuses, no pretending

No more places left to hide

Just a heart that needs Your grace

And a soul You never left

I fell, but You stayed

So here I am again

I replay every failure

Every moment I fell short

I measure scars and call them proof

That I don’t deserve Your hope

But You don’t see me how I do

You don’t keep count of all my wrongs

You see a child coming home

You hear a prayer inside my songs

I tried to earn what You give free

Tried to fix what grace already healed

I thought repentance meant I’d bleed

Before forgiveness could be real

But You met me with open arms

Not a lecture, not a list

Just love that didn’t ask me why

Just mercy that refused to quit

I don’t come with promises

I can’t swear I won’t fall

I just know You’ll meet me

Every single time I call

So here I am again

With my failures in the light

No mask, no hiding

Just truth tonight

I don’t deserve this love

But You give it nonetheless

I fell, but You stayed

So here I am again

If grace had an ending

I’d have reached it by now

If mercy was earned

I’d be nowhere around

But every time I break

Every time I bend

You don’t push me away

You pull me back in

Not once, not twice

Not only when I’m strong

But every single time

I prove You right and me wrong

You don’t label me “failure”

You don’t call me my sin

You just whisper my name

And say, “Come back again”

I’ve been lost

I’ve been weak

I’ve been everything

I said I’d never be

Still You wait

Still You stay

Still You love me

Anyway

So here I am again

Not because I’m brave

But because Your mercy

Outran my shame

Every fall, every flaw

Every tear I couldn’t hide

I fell, but You stayed

Right here by my side

So here I am again

Breathing grace instead of fear

Learning You were never gone

Even when You felt unclear

I don’t come with strength or pride

Just faith that hasn’t left

I fell, but You stayed

So here I am again

I’m not perfect

I never was

I’m just standing

In endless love

Here I am again