“Broken but Breathing”

Promises painted in permanent pens

But they bled when the pressure pressed

I gave my patience my pride my peace

While you played pretend with someone else

Late night lies on laminated lips

Sweet sounding sins you spun so slick

I stood still stitching shattered trust

While you slipped away without a slip

I held hope like holy water

You held hands with hidden hearts

I was building broken bridges

You were burning them from the start

I been broken but I’m breathing

Bruised but still believing

I bent but I didn’t break

I loved loud you loved leaving

I was real you were deceiving

Now I’m walking wide awake

From the pain from the past from the person you pretended to be

I’m done dying for your doubt

I’m moving on finally

Birthdays missed and borrowed tears

Years spent yelling into ears that never heard me

I carried chaos on my chest

While you counted comfort in someone else’s mercy

I fought for family faith and fire

You flirted with freedom and fed your desire

I stayed steady you stayed slippery

Said you were sorry but never sincere

I prayed for patience prayed for peace

You prayed nobody would see

I was holding on to honesty

You were holding onto secrecy

I been broken but I’m breathing

Bruised but still believing

I bent but I didn’t break

I loved loud you loved leaving

I was real you were deceiving

Now I’m walking wide awake

From the pain from the past from the person you pretended to be

I’m done dying for your doubt

I’m moving on finally

All those nights I knelt and begged

God give me grace don’t let me break

While you were laying in another bed

Calling it love calling it fate

I lost myself in loyalty

You lost respect repeatedly

But I found strength in standing still

And walking away was my victory

Breakdown

No more chasing

No more waiting

No more saving someone who won’t save me

I been broken but I’m breathing

Scarred but still succeeding

Still standing still strong still me

You can keep your empty sorrys

I’m done drowning in your story

This is closure calling me

From the lies from the loss from the love that was killing me

I ain’t bitter I’m better now

I’m moving on finally

Heart hurt healed heavy lessons

Past packed up no second guessing

I survived what was sent to stop me

Now I’m free and that’s my confession