All along

I wrestle with myself

In a Walmart parking lot

Fighting my own angels

Just like Jacob

Genesis 23:23

I keep looking for God

In all the wrong places

Feel so lost and alone

I Take a deep breath

Count 1 through 10

Blowing out

flavored nicotine

Feigning for a stronger Chemistry

to cross over my

Blood brain barrier

When all I need is the word

When will I realize

He's been here all along