All along

I wrestle with myself 
In a Walmart parking lot
Fighting my own angels
Just like Jacob 
 Genesis 23:23
I keep looking for God 
In all the wrong places
Feel so lost and alone 
I Take a deep breath
Count 1 through 10
Blowing out
flavored nicotine
Feigning for a stronger Chemistry
 to cross over my
Blood brain barrier 
When all I need is the word 
When will I realize
He's been here all along

Cloud rap
Mumble rap
 Hip house
Plugg 
Lazy
Illbient vibe 
Heavy bass