Pretend We Don’t Break

Yeah…

I know you feel it too…

If we not in love… then at least pretend you do…

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They try to copy but they never catch the point though,

If you lived inside my skull, you’d stab your torso.

I ain’t done it yet ’cause I got used to dyin’ slow,

Sober feelin’ sedated — like I popped a Ruphylin dose.

Head hurt, heart dead, I’m tethered,

Breathin’ feels like pressure when I’m buried under weather.

If I had a Glock, I’d aim it at the ceiling lights,

If I could feel anything, I’d probably cry tonight.

Reaper in my face steady swingin’ like he tease me,

Bitch, I’m deceased, but her top still please me.

“I think she like me”—nah, she wouldn’t like me,

Hate is in my blood, so matching energy is likely.

Bands on my wrist make the pain look icy,

Pour Henny in my iced tea—can you feel my psyche?

She said “Die with me,” I said “Girl, don’t try me,”

You don’t wanna go out the same way life denied me.

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If we not in love, can we just pretend?

Tat my skin so I don’t cut again.

She call me toxic when I try to vent —

Ask me where to start… I don’t know where it ends.

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If we not in love, then lie to me slow,

I don’t wanna die yet, but I’m losin’ control.

Feel too much, and I’m scared you’ll go —

Where my heart been, even God don’t know.

If we not in love, then tell me a lie,

Hold me in your arms like you want me alive.

Yeah, I’m tryna hold on but I’m slippin’ tonight…

Baby, pretend that we’re fine.

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Fuck that sad shit — put that ass on my face,

Oh shit, you got a man? Then he gon’ catch the fade.

If it gets messy, girl, you know I brought a blade,

But right now all I need is you ridin’ on my rage.

Pour liquor for the ones I don’t see no more,

I don’t love me — how you supposed to love me for sure?

You say I’m distant, but that’s how my heart learned war,

I’m the problem, baby, you can walk out the door.

But you still hit my line when the world turns cold,

3 AM sins in a body uncontrolled.

This ain’t pop music — this that raw—broken soul,

Suicidal thoughts rent space in my skull.

Industry thankful there ain’t two of me,

Truthfully, even one feels like it’s cruelty.

I got a vision one day I won’t wanna die —

But until that day comes, look me dead in the eyes—

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If we not in love, can we just pretend?

I Don’t wanna cut so I tat my skin.

Feet on the edge, and I’m fallin’ again —

Where do my problems start? I don’t know where they end.

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If we not in love, then lie to me slow,

I don’t wanna die yet, but the world says “go.”

Feel too much and I’m shakin’ below —

Baby, pretend that I’m whole.

If we not in love, then stay for the night,

Tattoo my name on the pain you hide.

Hold me together while I fall apart —

Just pretend you want my heart.

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I don’t wanna die yet…