Only Friend

Yeah…

Late nights, cold walls, no sleep again…

Bottle talk louder than my own head now…

I don’t even feel human anymore…

Room dark, blinds shut, ash all on the floor,

Every time I hear my thoughts, I pour a little more,

Mama said “fight it,” but the demons know my name,

Every mirror in the house lookin’ at me with shame.

I been numb too long, I can’t cry no more,

Got a heart full of pain and a locked front door,

Everybody say they love me till the lights go dim,

Then I’m back with the bottle and the thoughts again.

I don’t trust smiles, they fade too fast,

Everybody move on but I live in the past,

Head full of static, soul feel dead,

Only thing that understands me is the burn instead.

So I drink…

Till the noise disappear,

Till I can’t feel fear,

Till my reflection ain’t clear…

And I know…

This ain’t healing my scars,

But the whiskey hold me closer

Than the people in my arms…

Alcohol my only friend tonight,

Hold me while I fall apart inside,

Every shot make the darkness quiet,

Every sip help me hide from life.

I been alone inside my head so long,

Can’t tell what’s real when the pain this strong,

Numb to the world, numb to myself,

Bottle on the table like it’s all I got left.

Another empty bottle by the side of the bed,

Another night replayin’ every word ever said,

I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna feel,

Pain got a way of makin’ fake wounds real.

Friends disappeared when the storm came down,

Now I fake little laughs when I’m out in town,

But deep down, I’m drowning slow,

Smilin’ outside while my soul let go.

I got ghosts in my chest and smoke in my lungs,

Memories hit harder than the barrel of a gun,

Every drink turn my heartbeat cold,

Twenty-something years feel a hundred years old.

And the silence scream louder at 3AM…

When the whole world sleep and it’s just me again…

I try to run but my mind too fast…

So I pour another drink and fade to black…

Alcohol my only friend tonight,

Hold me while I fall apart inside,

Every shot make the darkness quiet,

Every sip help me hide from life.

I been alone inside my head so long,

Can’t tell what’s real when the pain this strong,

Numb to the world, numb to myself,

Bottle on the table like it’s all I got left.

And if I disappear into the night…

Tell ‘em I was tired of fightin’ my mind…

Cause loneliness can turn a soul so cold…

Till the only thing you love

Comes poured in gold…