House by the Sea

I’m back to dreaming love in 2D scenes,

Or running away with celebrities.

’Cause real love feels like a fantasy,

So I’d rather kiss the air than think you’re with me.

I tried pretending you were mine,

But you showed up as a darker sign.

Now every dream just turns to blue,

And I can’t keep rewriting you.

I don’t wanna dream of a house by the sea,

You and me hurting playfully.

I don’t wanna drown in memories,

But I keep chasing what can’t be.

I don’t wanna cry, don’t wanna see…

Why you’re not choosing me.

You moved on fast, you look so fine,

While I’m rebuilding heart and spine.

Crashed so hard into the wall,

Watching all my future fall.

I can’t see past yesterday,

I don’t even know how to pray.

I’m not afraid, I’m just undone,

Carrying this weight I can’t outrun.

Maybe one day I’ll forgive

All the dreams I tried to live.

Maybe one day I’ll be free

From the ghost of you and me.

I don’t wanna dream of a house by the sea,

You and me hurting endlessly.

I don’t wanna drown in what could be,

But I keep lying to me.

I don’t wanna love this desperately…

But you’re still inside of me.

So I’ll let the tide erase your name,

Let the waves unlearn the pain.

No more castles in the air —

I’ll wake up…

Even if it’s unfair.