Valentine In December (8PM)

Yeah…

Eight p.m., three missed calls

Winter hit harder than I thought.

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Valentine in December

You say you love me, but you don’t remember

My main, you only bring pain

Guess all girls feel the same when I’m under pressure

I don’t love you now

I don’t need you now

Demons dancing in my head

Tryna quiet them down

I don’t know if I’m living or barely surviving

But I keep fighting the urge just to stop all the trying

Sorry to my homies I drifted away

I been riding with the pain, yeah, day after day

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Got three missed calls, it’s only eight p.m.

How do I say we were never more than friends?

Cigarette smoke, I’m alone again

Whiskey burn—yeah, it’s Jameson

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Valentine in December

Cold love, but the scars remember

You say my name, but you don’t mean it

All girls the same when I’m feeling defeated

I don’t love you now

I don’t need you now

I keep riding with the demons

Till the wheels burn out

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Don’t act like I hate you, you know that I don’t

But blowing up my phone only tightens the rope

Sit in the dark, play my guitar low

Praying I make it—don’t know how I made it this far though

Look at the night sky, stars feel distant

Bright side faded, scars still glisten

Every fight in the car leaves a mark

Every word you throw hits hard in the dark

You want love, but I want space

I can’t build a future in this mental state

Drunk in my bed with my thoughts on blast

Trying not to drown in the weight of the past

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I don’t need a relationship dragging me down

I’m just trying to breathe, trying not to black out

Your voice cuts deep, I can’t ignore

But I don’t wanna hear it anymore

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Valentine in December

You say forever, but you never remember

I don’t love you now

I don’t need you now

All these demons dancing inside

I keep riding with them just to feel alive

I don’t love you now

I don’t need you now

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Winter left you colder than the breeze

Maybe you’re hurting from somebody who didn’t stay

Maybe it’s lust dressed up as love

Maybe we’re both just afraid

I get high just to slow my brain

Nights feel long, days feel the same

I don’t hate you, I just can’t stay

When every feeling pushes me away

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Valentine in December

Cold hearts make the pain remember

I tried to love, but I lost myself

Trying to save you, I needed help

I don’t love you now

I don’t need you now

I’m riding solo through the winter

Till the lights burn out

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Three missed calls…

Eight p.m.

Still alone, but I’m still here.