I Don’t Fear It Anymore

Intro

Yeah…

Lights off, mind loud

404… I’m still here somehow

Chorus

I don’t fear death, I’ve been dead inside

I just close my eyes, let the tears slide

Every night feels like my last breath

I don’t fear death… I fear what’s left

I don’t fear death when I’m all alone

When my phone stay dry, when my heart feels broke

I don’t wanna die, I just want rest

I don’t fear death… I fear the stress

Verse 1

I been talkin’ to the ceiling again

Askin’ if it ends or it just pretends

My thoughts get loud when the world goes quiet

Smile outside, inside I’m violent

I remember nights I begged for sleep

Hoped I wouldn’t wake, just some peace

Felt like a ghost in my own skin

Breathin’, but I wasn’t really in

I learned how to suffer in silence

Learned love don’t always mean guidance

I was just a kid with a broken mind

Tryna outrun pain I couldn’t leave behind

Chorus

I don’t fear death, I’ve been dead inside

I just close my eyes, let the tears slide

Every night feels like my last breath

I don’t fear death… I fear what’s left

I don’t fear death when I’m all alone

When my phone stay dry, when my heart feels broke

I don’t wanna die, I just want rest

I don’t fear death… I fear the stress

Verse 2

They say “you’ll be okay,” but they don’t stay

When the demons crawl out at nightfall late

I fake “I’m good” so they don’t see

How close I am to losin’ me

I feel like a burden when I speak my pain

So I let it rot, let it eat my brain

If I disappear, would it hurt at all?

Or would I just be another missed call?

I don’t feel brave, I just feel tired

Been holdin’ on way longer than required

Still breathin’ even when I don’t care

Still here… guess I’m self-aware

Bridge

I don’t wanna fade, I don’t wanna fall

I just wanna feel something at all

If I stay alive, it’s not ‘cause I’m strong

It’s ‘cause I survived when I felt gone

I’m scared of livin’, scared of the pain

Scared I’ll wake up feelin’ the same

So I sit with death, let it talk to me

But it don’t get to take what’s left of me

Final Chorus

I don’t fear death, I’ve made my peace

With the darkest parts inside of me

Every scar tells me I’ve been through hell

Still breathin’, so I rebel

I don’t fear death when the night gets cold

I fear livin’ with a broken soul

I don’t wanna die, I just want breath

I don’t fear death…

I fear the steps I take next

Outro

404 Leon

I don’t fear death…

I’m just tired of fightin’ myself