CLOSER NOW

(quiet)

I know I’m not there yet…

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But I’m not where I was…

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There was days I felt stuck in place…

Same routine, same kind of days…

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Knew deep down I needed change…

But I still moved the same old way…

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Said I’d fix it, said I’d start…

But I never really played my part…

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Watched time go by too fast…

While I stayed right where I was…

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Knew what I needed but didn’t commit

Half in, half out, I was stuck in the split

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Told myself “soon”, kept saying that

Now I look back like I wasted that

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Only ones close saw the shift in me

That I weren’t the same I was meant to be

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Still showed face but I felt that change

Like I drifted off and lost my place

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(quiet)

But I see it now…

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Clearer than before…

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(singing)

I’m getting closer now…

To who I said I’d be…

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Still got a way to go…

But I can finally see…

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I’m not where I should be…

But I won’t stay the same…

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I’m finding my way back…

I’m finding me again…

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I was hard on myself, I won’t lie…

Looking in like “who’s that guy?”…

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Had the drive but I let it fade…

Let distractions take its place…

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That’s on me, I own that now…

No more hiding, I see it now…

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If I want it, I have to move…

No more waiting, no more doubt…

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No more talk, I’m done with that

No more saying I’ll double back

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If I want change, I make it real

Not just something I say I feel

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Every step now means something

Every day I’m building something

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Not there yet but I’m on my way

And that’s the difference I can say

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(soft)

I’m still learning…

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Still growing…

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Still figuring it out…

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But I’m moving now…

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(singing)

I’m getting closer now…

To who I said I’d be…

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Still got a way to go…

But I can finally see…

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I’m not where I should be…

But I won’t stay the same…

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I’m finding my way back…

I’m finding me again…

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(soft)

Not where I was…

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Not where I wanna be…

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But I’m closer now…