She Was

I am broken & gone

I have no more strength or will.

Every ounce of pain is for naught

& Im left feeling hollow

Dust is all my eyes have left to shed

Broken Is a man who's potential has been wasted

& whose efforts bear no fruit not intentional

Im left stripped & naked, with nothing

To hold the wolves back at night

My heart battles daily with the still

& quiet voice inside

I must put aside my own self

To please my heart

My burden is like the ocean ever pressing

To crush & eager to see,

Another wretched soul to sink

Disappear into the deep

& yet I stand,

to be battered & broken again

on the rocks of my love

So Why do I stand? why must I stand

again and again

My eyes see beauty but all she feels is blame.

Guilt & sorrow, when will she wake

When will she see again

My heart is poison for which I have no repair

Im left here drowning in an ocean full

Of my desires despair

Broken once, twice, 1000 times.

Each revealed something new

Gone, empty, hollow the space left to fill

with lessons we learned from all weve been through

that shit we face is a chance to grow

we're like the moon so we need to go

through all the phases to be full again

let go of old, shine bright & new inspite of the pain

No tears flow you think crying is weak

Crying is a strength it can help you see

The times when giving up isn't right

This time it's the strength to get up & fight

For our love to survive

Give your tears to your soul to drink when theyre thirsty

Clarity comes from fear your mind breeds

like another log put on the fire to burn

to refuel & bring back the heat

Keep feeding it on repeat

Soon youll see

The cure is more not less believe me

She feels guilt, sorrow & holds the blame

her heartache reveals her shadows & disconnection

she'll see it all soon, she sees bits

She needs love to guide her back to the safe place with your protection

Thats what she saw in you

Her pains not yours to carry its hers to do

Its pain you werent the one who caused

You're her choice, who she wanted help from & help you with yours

- maybe thats how we could've made it through

you let her, she'll let you

Taking the lead, isn't a job or money just love & truth

a heart full of rocks is heavy to bare

by yourself or even with someone else there

Poison has a cure if you dont give into the fear

Cos thats how you drown faster in your despair

No ocean consumes a man who's willing to see

She has a queen energy thats made for his full power, his divine masculinity

She's already seen

The man she needs

& the woman she has to be

For him to fully reach

A man who is worthy of her submission & trust while he leads.