Mirror Confession

[Verse 1]
I look at my face and I flinch at the proof
Too many good chances I spit on the truth
Mama said, “Boy, don’t you carry that shame”
But I know every scar on my soul knows my name
Hands in the sink, talking to glass
“Why do I trip every time I get passed?”
I promised change, then I folded again
Same old stain on the hem of my skin
I want to be clean, but I keep getting high
On the rush of a lie, on the fear of the light
And I hate that I know how to call You and run
Then hide when You answer, like a child in the sun
[Pre-Chorus]
So I stare at myself like, “What are you doing?”
One step forward, then I’m back to ruining
If mercy is real, then why does it hurt?
I keep coming empty, still asking for worth
[Chorus]
Still unworthy
Still unworthy
Still You stay
Still unworthy
Still unworthy
Still You stay
[Verse 2]
I wore my best mask to the altar rail
Acted so saved while my insides failed
Sunday suit on a Tuesday mind
One foot in faith, one foot behind
I try to be holy, I try not to lie
But the old me is loud when the room gets quiet
I hate my reflection, it tells on me
Every cracked little corner of what I can be
And I know I don’t earn what I keep getting shown
A hand that reaches when I leave it alone
I’ve been the prodigal, stuck in the dust
Spending that grace like I don’t need much
[Pre-Chorus]
So I stare at myself like, “What are you doing?”
One step forward, then I’m back to ruining
If mercy is real, then why does it hurt?
I keep coming empty, still asking for worth
[Chorus]
Still unworthy
Still unworthy
Still You stay
Still unworthy
Still unworthy
Still You stay
[Bridge]
[Half-time, distorted guitars swell; vocal cracks into a near-scream]
I’m the one in the mirror saying “change,” then I don’t
I’m the one who keeps breaking what I swore I won’t
But if grace is a river, let it flood my shame
Let it wash this name I keep dragging through flames
I can’t save myself, I’ve tried and I’ve tried
I’m tired of the war that I keep inside
If You’re still here when I’ve got nothing to show
Then hold this wreck till it learns how to glow
[Chorus]
Still unworthy
Still unworthy
Still You stay
Still unworthy
Still unworthy
Still You stay
[Outro]
I’m talking to the mirror
And the mirror says my name
Still unworthy
Still You stay

Dark, introspective hybrid of confession rap and alt R&B, with male vocals, trap drums, moody pop hooks, warped guitar accents, thick 808 pulses, and a raw emo-rock bridge that cracks open into stacked harmonies; start intimate and breathy, then let the hook hit hard and repeat like a prayer in a locked room, alternative r&b, hip hop, rap, pop, rock, r&b, emo