Abused

(Verse 1)

I used to know my name and where I stood,

Now I’m second-guessing if my memories are good.

I checked the dates, I recorded every word,

But you tell me that’s not what I heard.

You say I’m "too sensitive" I’m "losing my grip,"

While I watch my reality slip.

(Pre-Chorus)

I’m walking on eggshells just to keep the peace,

Waiting for the anxiety and shouting to cease.

I apologize for things I know I didn’t do,

Just to stay in the light that’s shining from you.

(Chorus)

You create the madness and call it my fault,

Why can’t you talk to me like a grown ass adult

I’m chasing a version of truth that you hide,

While you hollow me out from the inside.

It’s mental erasure, leaving me confused,

there’s nothing left that you havent abused.

(Verse 2)

I stop making decisions cuz I’m "always wrong,"

I forgot what it felt like to ever be strong.

You isolated me until you’re the only one left,

Then turn your back cuz you’re all I have left

Every witness I have you’ve dismissed as a liar,

Burning my truth on your righteous fire.

Oh who’s the liar?! Who’s the liar?!

(Bridge)

Is it fog or is it smoke? I can’t even tell.

I’m trapped in this version of your hell.

My confidence is gone, eroded to dust,

By the constant betrayal of all I trust.

(Breakdown)

I used to check with you to see if I was right,

Searching for truth in the middle of the fight.

But the fog is lifting, the smoke is clear,

I’m finding the person you made me fear.

I am not the problem.

I am not the lie.

I am the truth you couldn’t buy.

(Chorus)

You create the madness and call it my fault,

Why can’t you talk to me like a grown ass adult

I’m chasing a version of truth that you hide,

While you hollow me out from the inside.

It’s mental erasure, leaving me confused,

there’s nothing left that you havent abused.

(Outro)

I found the pieces, but the scars go deep,

By promises you broke and secrets you keep.

I am not why.

I am not the lie.

I’m learning to trust what I know to be true,

And the first step is walking away from you.