What i Realy want

[Verse 1]
You say love
Feels like pressure on my chest
You say hate
Feels exactly like the rest
Same fight
Same night
Same cold hands on the sink
Heart’s tired of the cycle
Head too loud to think
[Chorus]
I’ve been living in the middle
Caught in every crossed wire
In love and hate
It’s the same old trouble
Same smoke
Same fire
I don’t want this constant battle
I just want a quiet mind
I need to know what I really love
What I want
This time
[Verse 2]
We talk big
But we’re choking on the small stuff
Scrolling through
Other lives that look enough
Can’t tell fear
From the things that make me glow
Keep saying “I should”
But “I want” stays low
[Chorus]
I’ve been living in the middle
Caught in every crossed wire
In love and hate
It’s the same old trouble
Same smoke
Same fire
I don’t want this constant battle
I just want a quiet mind
I need to know what I really love
What I want
This time
[Bridge]
So I write a list in the dark
Every truth
Every spark
What would stay if you walked away
What would still feel like my heart (yeah)
[Chorus]
I’ve been living in the middle
Caught in every crossed wire
In love and hate
It’s the same old trouble
Same smoke
Same fire
I don’t need this heavy armor
I just want an honest life
I’m gonna choose what I really love
What I want
This time

Free R&Bi alt-pop with intimate male vocals over warm electric piano and subtle trap-influenced drums. Verses stay quiet