If I go Tonight

Some days I’m morning light trying to feel like home,

Other days I’m lightning dressed in borrowed skin.

You kiss my scars like they’re not warnings in red,

But I can’t promise I won’t break again instead.

I’ve been praying in the silence,

Where even angels lose their wings.

But when you say my name like shelter,

I almost believe in the sun again.

If I fall tonight, will you hold the air?

Whisper my name like I’m still there.

If I fade like a song you used to play,

Would your soul still hum my name someday?

I’m not asking for the light to last

Just someone who won’t look away too fast.

My mind is a cathedral with shattered stained glass,

Holy one moment, then gone in a flash.

You trace my moods like stars behind a veil,

Reading constellations in my quiet hell.

I’ve been praying in the silence,

Where even angels lose their wings.

But when you say my name like shelter,

I almost believe in the sun again.

If I fall tonight, will you hold the air?

Whisper my name like I’m still there.

If I fade like a song you used to play,

Would your soul still hum my name someday?

I’m not asking for the light to last—

Just someone who won’t look away too fast.

Don’t dress me in strength I never wore,

Some nights I’m nothing, and nothing hurts more.

If I’m just a poem you once tried to save,

Will you still read me after the grave?

And if you ever find this song alone,

Know I tried to make this body a home.

But if I go tonight, don’t lie

Just tell the world

I burned bright before goodbye.