Intimate Void

I arrived home today

To see you drive away

An empty and cold home

Where I spend my time alone

A life once full of warmth and color

Passion and respect for one another

Replaced now by chilly silence

Respect gave way to violence

A destruction we profoundly feel

But I always expected we'd heal

Once intense friendship

Everyday was a new trip

Building memories joy and love

We fit just like a glove

And invited the Lord above

But now where is that love

Don't you see me

Do you feel me

You dont want me

Where is the intimacy

My life of struggle and pain

Broken wires in my brain

But I chose a different way

When I first saw you that day

My heart began to soar

When I heard your lioness roar

And all I wanted in my life

Was you with none of this strife

I know I screwed it up

Drank from the poisoned cup

Swayed by trauma abd infancy

The death of intimacy

Now alone with a heart so cold

Poor health as I grow old

Its more than a soul sold

I try hard to rise up and be bold

I know im a fool you see

Paying daily to you and me

Trying to stand tall and not flee

Desperate to rebuild intimacy

I once was king had it all

But defeated myself and did fall

I suffer every minute as I live whats true

There's only one thing I want and it is you