Intimate Void

I arrived home today
To see you drive away
An empty and cold home
Where I spend my time alone
A life once full of warmth and color 
Passion and respect for one another 
Replaced now by chilly silence 
Respect gave way to violence
A destruction we profoundly feel
But I always expected we'd heal
Once intense friendship
Everyday was a new trip
Building memories joy and love
We fit just like a glove 
And invited the Lord above
But now where is that love
Don't you see me
Do you feel me
You dont want me
Where is the intimacy
My life of struggle and pain
Broken wires in my brain
But I chose a different way
When I first saw you that day
My heart began to soar
When I heard your lioness roar
And all I wanted in my life
Was you with none of this strife
I know I screwed it up
Drank from the poisoned cup
Swayed by trauma abd infancy
The death of intimacy 
Now alone with a heart so cold
Poor health as I grow old
Its more than a soul sold
I try hard to rise up and be bold
I know im a fool you see
Paying daily to you and me
Trying to stand tall and not flee
Desperate to rebuild intimacy
I once was king had it all
But defeated myself and did fall
I suffer every minute as I live whats true
There's only one thing I want and it is you

Mariachi