Hardened

Maybe it's time I said goodbye
To all the habits and rituals that define
Everything that's ever been wrong with me
Honestly, it's all I ever see

Tell me there's a better way to breathe
There's never enough air flowing through my body when it's weak 
Can't help but compare my wary woes til the garden grows my regrets from the dirt

Here I lay with my head open and aired out
My thoughts went spinning towards the great beyond but broke down before the first word

My malice born from angry thoughts of what was done to earn the scorn
Why do I stutter and shake whenever there's a hard decision to make 


It's like I'm my own worst enemy
Burn down bridges for the ones I love
I can still tether the past but only in moments that don't last but they sing to me in my sleep
The three hours it's seems in a week

[Slow acoustic guitar solo]

I've learned the deeper you dig the harder it gets
Clay raw from scraping an exit from Hell
My soul keeps fighting but what for in the end
Alone in the darkness eyes fallen again

The reaper seals the date with a swift swipe of his blade
I saw freedom and turned away just to stand here today

 A BROKEN MAN FOR SURE
BUT A MAN BUILT TO ENDURE

I am living for purpose
A way out of pain 
No one could deserve this
But I am still to blame

Acoustic samples, lo-fi 808s, soft pained male vocals, harmonic blending on chorus, live, 25 BPM, quiet, vinyl crackle