Static Prayers

Screen flickers.

Hands together.

I’m still here…

I think.

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I move like I’m buffering through the day

Half here, half somewhere I can’t explain

People talk, but it sounds delayed

Like I’m watching myself from far away

I kneel out of habit, not hope tonight

Words feel heavy, tongue tied tight

Start the prayer, forget the end

Like even heaven might scroll past it

Breathing’s automatic

Heart still beats, but it’s static

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I smile on cue, say “I’m okay”

Even my reflection looks out of frame

If You hear me, I don’t know how

To say it clean—or say it loud

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I feel like a glitch in my own life

Not dead, not really alive

Just stuck in the echo of yesterday

Replaying scenes I can’t escape

I don’t doubt, I don’t believe

I just float between the seams

Hands together, heart adrift

I pray in glitches—hope You catch it

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Days blur into nights that don’t rest

Sleep won’t erase what’s in my head

Every thought hits “rewind” on time

Every regret still loads just fine

I used to believe with my whole chest

Now it echoes like an empty text

They say “have faith” like it’s a switch

Flip it once and you’re fixed

I keep trying to update myself

But I’m trapped in an older build

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If I shut down, would they see?

Or would the world just skip over me?

I don’t need answers, I don’t need signs

I just need quiet in my mind

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I feel like a glitch in my own life

Living on standby, barely online

Not chasing dreams, not running away

Just frozen in the wrong save state

I don’t cry, I don’t scream

I scroll through my memory

Hands together, breath adrift

I pray in fragments—hope You catch it

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I don’t want death—I want clarity

I want silence inside of me

If doubt’s a sin, I’m guilty still

But I show up… maybe that counts

I light a match inside the dark

Even if it shakes, it’s a spark

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I’m still running, still compiled

Searching through the code of me

Not faithless—just human

System strained… but still awake.