Everytime You Appear

Intro 
I’m fine.
Until you show up.

Verse 1
I’m doing okay, I’m standing upright
Then your name hits my screen like a streetlight
Didn’t say a word, didn’t cross a line
Still you pull me back to another time

I don’t even miss you, that’s the truth
I miss the version of me before you
You don’t touch me, you don’t try
But you still know how to ruin my night

Pre-Chorus
You don’t need to say a thing
Your presence does enough
I hate that something so small
Can still mess me up

Chorus
Every time you appear
I lose my balance again
I’m not heartbroken, I’m pissed
That you still get in my head

You don’t want me, you don’t stay
You just haunt and walk away
Every time you appear
I’m dragged back years

Verse 2
You don’t ask how I am
You don’t check if I’m okay
You just exist in my space
Like that’s supposed to be okay

I rebuilt myself in silence
While you vanished without guilt
Now you circle like you’re harmless
Like you didn’t do the damage you did

Pre-Chorus
I don’t want closure from you
I want my peace back instead
I hate that I’m this self-aware
And still feel it in my chest

Chorus
Every time you appear
I lose my balance again
I’m not heartbroken, I’m angry
That you still get in my head

You don’t want me, you don’t stay
You just haunt and walk away
Every time you appear
I’m dragged back years

Bridge 
You don’t get access to me
Just because you feel bored
You don’t get to reopen wounds
Then act like you meant no harm

I’m not weak, I’m just human
And I hate that this is true
I’m stronger than your silence
But I still feel what you do

Chorus 
Every time you appear
I remember why I left
Why I had to choose myself
Over waiting on your mess

This isn’t love, it’s a scar
And you don’t get to touch it
Every time you appear
I swear I’m done with it

Outro
So don’t say hi.
Don’t check in.
Let me heal
Without you reminding me who I was then.

female,alt rock/emo,electro pop/edm,synth undertones,technic,emotional,strong vocals,fast paced,beats,808s,dubstep