I Don’t Understand

I- I I 
I just don’t understand you mother 

You told me you wished I was never born
You told me to kill myself at age 4
You told me no one cares about me
You you told me
You you told me 
You told me that I was the ugliest child you’ve ever seen 

I want to blame you so much for all my mental health problems 
I want to blame you for ruining my life

But I’m going to be the bigger man of this situation 
I don’t blame you for anything besides one thing

You did wreck the entire family by your foolish mind games 

You would tell me all such of horrible things 
You would tell me how my family didn’t like me

Maybe you are right about that though, facts though 

None of my family reaches out to me

My dads side of the family is almost extinct but your side of the family is already making younger generations and not one of them even attempted to contact me

So yeah mom maybe you’re right

My own brothers hardly even reach out to me

I’m the black sheep of the family now, I understand now

Maybe you were right about everything 

I just don’t understand why now you act like you never told me any of this, I remember it very clearly 

Dark Cyberpunk Techno with Haunting Melodies and Heavy Beats