[Intro – Soft, Breathy]
Yeah…
4 AM, still awake.
Trying to breathe through it.
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[Verse 1]
I had the best of the worst sides
Lungs full of smoke, heart still alive
Too many flash fires I let burn
Chest on fire, head won’t learn
I guess I’m lying ’cause I want to
I guess I’m lying ’cause I don’t
I’m so tired it’s move or slowly fade
Like I need something to come alive today
She said, “You ain’t you when you’re like this”
I said, “That’s the point, I don’t know who I is”
You don’t know how to let go
Who said this had to be all or nothing though?
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[Pre-Chorus]
I’ll never let you know
I can’t tell you nothing
I keep it bottled up
’Cause opening hurts too much
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[Chorus]
Sorry that I’m not enough
Sorry I just give up
When the going gets tough
All I ever do is run
I’m a mess sometimes, yeah
But I could always be
Whatever you wanted
Just not what you needed from me
Sorry that I’m not enough
I’m not enough
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[Verse 2]
4 AM, in my room, I’m high again
Walking cautious through a world that feels like a lion’s den
Crying quiet ’cause nobody really listens
So I bleed it out online, call it “coping,” call it distance
Got walls and a roof, but this house ain’t home
Rolling up, lost, way out my zone
Drowning in issues, out of control
Too many thoughts, nowhere to go
I say things I don’t mean
Just to feel something rush
Lying feels easier
Than admitting I’m crushed
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[Pre-Chorus 2]
All I needed was words to say
That these feelings don’t own me
That it’s not all chemicals anyway
Even if it feels lonely
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[Chorus – Lifted]
Sorry that I’m not enough
Sorry I just give up
When the going gets tough
All I ever do is run
I’m a mess inside, yeah
I say what I don’t mean
’Cause I want love so bad
But I don’t know how to keep it clean
Sorry that I’m not enough
I’m not enough
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[Bridge – Honest Turn]
I don’t want to disappear
I just want the noise to stop
I don’t need saving tonight
I just need a softer thought
If I stay, I stay breathing
If I go, I go numb
I’m learning how to sit with pain
Instead of always running from it
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[Final Chorus / Outro]
I’m sorry that I’m not enough
But I’m still showing up
Even when it hurts
Even when I’m stuck
I’m a mess sometimes
But I’m still here, still me
Trying to learn how to love
Without running away constantly
(fade)
Yeah…
Still here.