You deserve that (in your arms that night)

Ran into her and him downtown,

Didn’t even mean to look around

But there she was, his arms where mine had been

Felt like the wind got knocked right out again.

I didn’t say a word, just drove

Heart in my throat, pretending I was whole

You didn’t ask, you just opened your door

Let me fall apart on your bedroom floor.

And I’m trying to let go,

Trying to be more than what you already know

You stayed with me that night

When I had nothing left to show

You know I still miss her,

But you never make me choose

You just hold me like I’m worth it

And you deserve that.

Yeah, you deserve that.

You didn’t flinch at all my mess

Didn’t need me to be anything but wrecked

You just let me be in your quiet way,

No pressure, no questions, you just stayed.

You laughed when I finally spoke,

Wiped the tears and lit my smoke

I don’t think I’ve ever known

Someone who’d sit with ghosts they don’t even own.

I’m still trying to let go,

To give you more than half a soul

You’re patient with the silence,

Even when it takes its toll

You know I still miss her,

But you believe in something true

You’re the calm I never asked for

And you deserve that.

God, you deserve that.

If I ever find the words,

You’ll be the first to know

But for now, I’ll hold your hand

And try to let her go.

Yeah, I’m still learning how to breathe,

Still fighting what she left in me

But your arms that night were everything

I didn’t know I’d need

You know I still miss her,

But you love me through the bruise

And I’m trying to be better

Because you deserve that.

More than anyone…

You deserve that.