Numb dosent love you

the city sighs / neon cries / another high / another lie

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Quarter-past 3 AM, Styrofoam cup in my hand

Codeine lilac, sweet talk, sinking like quicksand

Bodies blur, cheap perfume, strangers know my name

But when the lights come up, I’m right back where I came

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I keep chasing numb, but numb won’t love me back

Lines on the countertop, tracks on a beaten track

Pour it, pop it, roll it—fade to monochrome black

I keep chasing numb, but numb won’t love me back

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Tally marks on motel sheets, counting hearts I never kept

Silhouettes in smoke rings, trading secrets we won’t accept

Instagram smiles, filtered wine, flexing pain in disguise

Scrolling through my memory reels, every reel is a lie

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Hands up on my shoulders, feel like phantom limbs

Karaoke laughter drowning heavy hymns

I play pretend—king of clouds—’til the thunder begins

Echoes tell me silence wins

(beat drops into deeper lo-fi groove)

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I keep chasing numb, but numb won’t love me back

Spirits in a bottle dance inside a paper sack

Burn it, breathe it, crush it—fade to monochrome black

I keep chasing numb, but numb won’t love me back

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On the roof, drunk dusk collides with dawn

I jumped.

Weightless air—then time slowed down

City lights like stars beneath a crown

And halfway down I whispered,

“Oh shit… I fucked up bad.

Tell Mom I’m sorry for the nights I made her sad

I didn’t mean to be a ghost wearing her son’s skin

Didn’t know how to lose and still let love in”

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Every fight, every drink, every word I never said

Flashing like Polaroids inside my head

That time Dad cried and thought I didn’t see

The birthdays I skipped, pretending I was free

Regret’s a bitch that bites too late

Gravity don’t care about fate

I thought the pain would die with me

But it followed all the way to the concrete

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I kept chasing numb, but numb don’t hold you back

It kisses you like comfort, then it fades to black

Falling, fading, praying—take this weight I packed

I kept chasing numb, but numb don’t love you back

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“Hi baby… I made your favorite. Just call me, okay? I miss you.”

(click)

(vinyl hiss fades to silence)

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