Title: “Dear Dadda, Dear Mommy”

🎶 Title: “Dear Dadda, Dear Mommy”

Yeah…

It’s me…

I don’t even know where to start…

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Dear Dadda, dear Mommy, I’m writing this in tears

Feel like I been drowning, holding pain for years

I know I messed up, I ain’t perfect, I admit it

Tryna fight my demons but they louder when it’s quiet

I been losing sleep, overthinking every move

Heart heavy every day, got too much to prove

If I could take it back, I swear I would rewind

But I’m stuck in this body with a war in my mind

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I’m sorry for the things I did

Sorry for the way I live

I’m trying but it’s hard to breathe

Feel like the world don’t hear me

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Dear Dadda, dear Mommy, I’m sorry I’m a failure

I’m trying every day but the pain getting greater

Please God, please Mommy, please Dadda forgive me

For every single sin, every time I was empty

I’m not okay mentally, I’m not okay physically

Smiling on the outside but inside it’s killing me

Dear Dadda, dear Mommy… can you still love me?

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I be talking to God like “Do you even hear me?”

On my knees late night, asking why you made me

Like why I feel broken, why I feel alone

Why my heart so cold but I’m begging for a home

I ain’t tryna be this way, I’m just tryna survive

Every tear that I cry feel like part of me died

And I hate that I hurt y’all, I hate what I became

But I’m still that same child, just carrying pain

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Look—

I ain’t perfect, I admit it, I been fighting my reflection

Every mistake I made turned into a lesson

But it still cut deep, yeah the scars don’t fade

Got a smile on my face but it’s all just a shade

I be breaking down quietly, nobody see

Got the weight of the world sitting heavy on me

If love real, why it feel like I’m begging for mine?

If I’m worth it, why I question it all the time?

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If I fall… would you catch me?

If I cry… would you hear me?

If I break… would you fix me?

Or just leave me how you see me…

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Dear Dadda, dear Mommy, I’m sorry I’m a failure

But I’m still standing here, I’m fighting through the pressure

Please God, please Mommy, please Dadda forgive me

I’m learning how to heal, even when it’s heavy

I’m not okay right now, but I won’t stay this way

I’m holding onto hope even on my worst days

Dear Dadda, dear Mommy… I’m still trying… okay?

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I’m still trying…

I hope that’s enough…