'cause I’m low

Don’t exaggerate.

Others somehow get by.

That you can’t handle it,

that’s just a detail.

I wake up too early, not feeling okay again

Thoughts keep circling, crawling under my skin

It’s “kinda fine,” “kinda normal,” that’s what it seems

But inside something collapses every day, routinely.

They say: “relax,” they say: “you’ll manage somehow”

And I’m falling apart, can’t pull myself together now

I laugh out loud, ‘cause it’s easier that way

Than saying straight what’s scratching my throat every day.

I don’t make scenes

I don’t cause drama

Sometimes I just

Can’t handle it alone.

I sing ‘cause I’m low, ‘cause it’s choking me tight

‘Cause if I go silent, something pulls me inside

I sing ‘cause I’m low, not for fun or a game

‘Cause silence attracts all the ghosts that remain.

I sing ‘cause I’m low, quietly so

So I’m not left alone in this scream I don’t show

I sing ‘cause I’m low — no, this isn’t pretend

It’s the only way I’m still holding on in the end.

I’ve got people around me, but none really close

Everyone’s warming their own little fire they chose

They text: “how’s it going?” — I text back: “it’s fine”

But “it’s fine” really means: I’m barely alive.

Days rush by fast, I’m stuck in one place

Too much in my head, too little makes sense

I wish I could shut down, escape for a bit

But life comes right back with a doubled-up hit.

Not everything needs to be named

Some things are simply given that way.

Sometimes it’s enough to understand in the quiet

That what hurts doesn’t always scream or riot.

I sing ‘cause I’m low, ‘cause the silence eats me whole

Music’s the only thing still helping my soul

I sing ‘cause I’m low, don’t ask me “why”

Sometimes I don’t even know myself inside.

I sing ‘cause I’m low, day after day

So I don’t get lost somewhere along the way

I sing ‘cause I’m low — sounds trivial, maybe

But it’s what keeps me grounded, keeps me real lately.

I’m not tough — I’m just tired

Of pretending all the time that I’m fine and inspired.

If you know this, if you feel the same too

Then know this for real — you’re not the only one, it’s true.

I sing ‘cause I’m low, not ‘cause I want to

But ‘cause I don’t know any other thing to do

I sing ‘cause I’m low — as long as my voice sounds

It means something inside me still hasn’t gone out.

I sing ‘cause I’m low, I’m still standing here

Still trying, still feeling, still staying sincere

I sing ‘cause I’m low — that’s all there is to say

Today it’s my way not to disappear for a day.

I sing.

That’s how I am today.

And that’s enough.