Wildflower in My Ashtray

Verse 1

She came in like a Sunday morning

Soft as a chapel hymn

I was still tasting last night’s whiskey

When she went and believed in me again

She talked about open skies

And planting roots that’d last

I just nodded, held her hand

Like I wasn’t already half in the past

Chorus

She’s a wildflower in my ashtray

Blooming where the smoke won’t clear

I keep saying I’ll quit these matches

But I light one every time she’s near

She keeps loving what she hopes I’ll be

I keep being what I am

She’s a wildflower in my ashtray

And I don’t know how to hold her with these hands

Verse 2

She hears the ache behind my laughter

Like she’s learned the sound of rain

Every time I start to wander

She’s standing there, calling my name

She thinks I’m just a wounded man

One good love away from home

I know I’m more like a drifting train

That never stays long at one station

Chorus

She’s a wildflower in my ashtray

Still reaching for the sun

While I keep pouring gasoline

On every good thing I’ve done

She keeps saying “we’re forever”

I keep counting miles instead

She’s a wildflower in my ashtray

And I’m the one who’s watching her fade

Bridge

If love was all it took

I’d be a better man

But love don’t change a restless soul

Just shows it what it can’t hold onto

Verse 3

Some nights I almost believe her

That I could be someone new

Then the road starts calling my name

Like it always used to do

Final Chorus

She’s a wildflower in my ashtray

And Lord, I know it ain’t right

To keep a heart that pure

In a place this full of fire and fight

She deserves a field of springtime

Not a man like me

She’s a wildflower in my ashtray

And I wish she’d quit trying to be

Outro

But she won’t

And I won’t