Numb Again

[Verse 1]
Scrollin' through the damage in my phone log
Same names, same fights, yeah it's on loop
Heart been on airplane mode too long
I don't even flinch when the pain shoot
Mama say pray, I just change route
Actin' like I'm fine till the mask melt
Friends say they ride, then they phase out
So I taught myself how to not feel
[Chorus]
I been feelin' numb again
Numb again, numb again
Stare at the ceiling till it all blend
I don't wanna touch that hurt
So I shut it down first
Tell 'em I'm good, but it don't mend
I been feelin' numb again
Numb again, numb again
[Verse 2]
I don't even cry, it's just dry eyes
Sleepin' with the TV talkin' all night
Laughin' at the wrong time, off-side
Smilin' in a storm like it's alright (it ain't)
Bottle in the drawer for the bad days
Ghostin' every call when the walls shake
Feelin' like a glitch in the hallway
Stuck between the shout and the sound fade
[Chorus]
I been feelin' numb again
Numb again, numb again
Stare at the ceiling till it all blend
I don't wanna touch that hurt
So I shut it down first
Tell 'em I'm good, but it don't mend
I been feelin' numb again
Numb again, numb again

rap, Dark, spacious hip hop beat with detuned bells, moody pads, and a heavy, head-nod groove. Male vocals, close and dry in the verses, almost whispered intensity; chorus widens with layered doubles and low harmonies. Occasional distorted ad-libs and filtered drops between sections to heighten the numb, drifting feel., hip hop