Last Farewell

Waking up in the morning’s hard…

I still say your name in my sleep.

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Waking up in the morning’s hard

I miss you even though it don’t make sense

It hurts in my chest just to breathe

When all I see are stories of our love

I go out just to feel less alone

They ask how you are like you’re still mine

I say I’m okay, but I’m lying

My head’s so fucked from what you did

Who knew it’d be so easy

To lose yourself completely

I saw you in the limelight, turned blind to your ways

You swore you’d always be okay

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You kept hurting yourself, couldn’t see

Put out your fires with gasoline

And it poured on me

Yeah, it poured on me

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So tell me, tell me

When did you love somebody else?

Did you care when you just

Tore my heart to shreds in someone’s bed?

I tried so hard to hate you

But I can’t stop loving who I thought you were

Was it ever real, or were your lips still stained from him?

This is my loving last farewell

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I believed the words you sold me

Covered up the truth you’d hold inside

I stayed when everyone walked away

Thought love could save you in time

You say nobody understands you

Push them away when they get close

I was the last one standing

But I can’t watch you fade anymore

Trapped by your limitations

A bright potential wasted

On fantasies you chase

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If I knew that through the years you’d be falling

I would’ve said goodbye before it broke me

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So tell me, tell me

When did you love somebody else?

Did it matter when you just

Tore my heart apart and called it “help”?

I’m trying not to hate you

But loving you is killing me

Don’t call me honey

You’re the best and worst thing I believed

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I hope you find the missing pieces

Learn to love yourself for no damn reason

I’m done bleeding just to prove

That I was good to you

I’m sorry I couldn’t save you

From all your self-inflicted danger

But staying cost me everything

And leaving’s how I breathe again

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So this is my loving last farewell

Take him and go to hell

I’m done replaying what we were

I choose myself—no one else

I should’ve seen it coming

But this was my mistake

Now I let you go…

And that’s the only way.