Hope you understand Started out drinking some say that's my downfall But I'm a say you wrong check my sound y'all I used to be found y'all with a bottle in a bag Kawamitas me dicen when I'm with fam And for my kids how I met your mother Drinking late night every night with her brother Mi compa j.a.p his sister became my wife Now I have 4 beautiful daughters in my life And that's everything to me It was hard to take when I had to leave That's a mindset I don't wish for anyone A depressed mother fucking one Got my hands on drugs it was a way to cope But the smoke only enhanced the way my heart broke Diagnosed with congested heart failure Death is always in my mind let me tell ya I'm in line now waiting for my number Thinking will I make it another summer Hope you understand what I been through To my girls how I really really miss you I'm not perfect now it's me against the world I could never take this shit if it wasn't for my girls I hope you understand that nobody is perfect I hope you understand to all my fam I hurted I hope you understand never wanted this to happen I hope you understand bo loc is fucking rapping I hope you understand don't get me wrong I was wrong Neglecting myself I tell you my days are so long And you know I couldn't hold back my tears I used to fear death now I step up to my fears Just knowing there's a date already set for me I'm sorry God I'm not trying to rewrite history My family means everything to me in my heart I keep you there always even most days were apart I just keep the faith in you lord that they are all ok That's the calm that I get so I can end every day The worse I can do is give up on myself God why you push me so much I needed so much help But I realized it was the devil God has never left me I see every day all the wonderful blessings Everything was going against me I was all alone But I see now all the good things in my life was never gone In my face some still there and some have left It don't matter what happened I promise aracely I love you til death And I can honestly say I really mean it That's how you love someone best believe it With my heart failing I just try to be a man I never meant to cause any pain I hope you understand I hope you understand better yet it's better that you didn't Try living everyday when you feel your life is finished Like how to cope when you broke and mother fuckers never got you Hard times they never called you I'm a keep it real and forget the ugly shit I saw through I feel like Michael Phelps in a deep ocean but I ain't him I hope it's just a dream because I can't swim I can't win I feel like a loser The only way out was be a drug abuser A choose to not give a fuck leave it to be destined I'm stubborn now where were you I didn't get the message Or call blow clouds against the wall I'm pissed the fuck off screaming fuck all of y'all That's how it is that's how it goes no one knows I'm sorry everyone but that's how the story goes I hope you understand