Fulcrum

I held the world on my back 'til my spine cracked.

Now I’m just the hinge they twist when they wanna feel something.

I’m the fulcrum, bitch—balance your bullshit on me

Snap my neck with your silence, then beg me to speak

You want love like a pill, but I’m pure amphetamine

I’m the prayer you whisper when you’re too fucked to believe

You said I’m your anchor, your savior, your sin

But you drown me in vodka and call it a win

I bleed in your name, you just sharpen the blade

Tell me again how I’m the one who’s insane

I’m the fulcrum—break me, bend me,

Swing from my bones like your fuckin' pendulum

I’m the fulcrum—hate me, need me,

You only love me when I’m bleeding

I tattooed your lies on the back of my tongue

So every scream tastes like you when it’s sung

You said “forever” like it came with a gun

Now I’m stuck in your heaven, but hell’s more fun

I’m the fulcrum—break me, bend me,

Swing from my bones like your fuckin' pendulum

I’m the fulcrum—hate me, need me,

You only love me when I’m bleeding

I’m not your fucking martyr

I’m the wreckage you worship

You built your peace on my war

Now choke on the verses

I was your fulcrum

Now I’m your fault line

Watch me split the sky

While you beg for a sign

I’m the fulcrum—break me, bend me,

Swing from my bones like your fuckin' pendulum

I’m the fulcrum—hate me, need me,

You only love me when I’m bleeding

I’m the fulcrum—fuck you, save me,

I was your balance, now I’m your ending