[Verse 1] I change for the better, but that’s not enough It’s selfish, we both are Every reason I give only makes you upset So I’m upset I’m sorry my choices shake you this much I’m just trying to breathe in a future I trust But I don’t know what to do I don’t know how to feel I don’t know how to break who I am Just to make you heal New year, new me, that’s what they say But every step forward pulls us away I hear you crying through a phone line And I’m dying trying not to cross mine [Pre-Chorus] I can’t pick and choose what I believe That’s not how a soul survives I’m changing for peace Not running from you But it feels like I’m losing your eyes [Chorus] I feel like you love me But hate who I am now I feel like I’m trying And you’re shutting me down I don’t wanna go back To the dark I outgrew But it feels like you miss The broken old me more than the new I’m not numb I’m not gone I’m just trying to be strong But every time I stand up I’m not enough for who I’m becoming [Verse 2] You say you miss when I needed you more When I was a mess on the bathroom floor Depressed, anxious, barely alive Now I see light and you close your eyes I don’t wanna be that guy again Counting pills and counting sins I’ve been praying for my future And I don’t know if you’re in it I get laughed at when I clock in I swallow jokes just to fit in I’m tired of being everybody’s weight While I’m fighting to not self-destruct again [Pre-Chorus] This time I say what I really think This time I don’t pretend But somehow that makes me the villain For trying to live again [Chorus] I feel like you love me But hate who I am now I feel like I’m healing And you’re breaking me down I don’t wanna go back To the storm I outgrew But it feels like you want The old pain more than the truth I’m not weak I’m just hurt I’m just scared it won’t work But every time I choose myself I’m not enough for who I’m becoming [acoustic guitar solo] [Bridge] I love you I swear that I do But I can’t keep bleeding Just to stay close to you I won’t be a shadow Of who I was Just to prove that I’m worthy of love [Final Chorus] I feel like you love me But hate who I am I feel like I’m growing And you don’t understand I don’t wanna lose you But I can’t lose me So I’m standing right here In the person I’m learning to be I’m not broken I’m not done I’m just scared of what we’ve become But if being myself Means I’m not enough Then maybe I was never loved For who I’m becoming

Who I’m becoming